Matthew 5:24
Leave there your gift before the altar, and go your way; first be reconciled to your brother, and then come and offer your gift.
At that moment I knew what I needed to do. I understood why my prayers had been empty and unanswered. But I was too afraid to change. And I really wasn’t even sure where to start. Then one night everything changed. I found myself at a crossroad. To the left I could see the path I was naturally drawn to, a desert trail of lonesome turmoil. Where creatures of darkness whispered my name, promising false hope and a sure path to death. Shadows circled my feet and pricked at my skin, teasing my flesh, enticing my spirit to follow the voices. But the road to my right was different. It was simple, peaceful. This path spiraled upward, towards the sky and it didn’t appear to have an end. And then I saw a man. He stood inches away with tears streaming from eyes that said things only my spirit could comprehend. Without speaking a word He held out His hands, as a father would to his child. His gaze bore into my soul and I could feel His heart wanting to meld into mine. I looked back and forth, from left to right, trying to choose my destiny, until my legs could no longer stand and I fell on my face. I lay, sobbing, at the crossroad for what felt like an eternity, and in all brokenness I begged for forgiveness. I pleaded for a fresh filling of knowledge and wisdom. I prayed for truth. And as He gently lifted me from the ground up to His side, I was made new.
2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.
When I came back to reality I felt as though the world had shifted on its axis, and my eyes opened new. It was like I was reborn, like I had been lost and found, it was as though I hadn’t lived before that moment. My walls were down for the first time in my life and I knew that life would never be the same.
-written sept 12, 2011
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